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(08.05.02) (12:06)
(and they call this freedom...not what it seems to me, sugar coated disease, buckle at the knees)
"what is mind? no matter. what is matter? never mind." -T.H. Key. that really doesn't have any relevance to what this entry is about, but i was looking for something that would have relevance to it in a book my mother bought a while ago that has a bunch of quotes on various subjects, and saw that and thought it was cute. all together now: ooo ahh.
now, on to what this entry is about: the mind is a very powerful thing. yeah, that's so corny it hurts, but corny things can be true, too. if you are thinking in the right order and at the right pace, you can make yourself do, or believe, anything you want. right now, i am telling myself, "you don't need to eat. why would you need to eat? do you feel that feeling in your stomach? that is the feeling of fullness. you don't recognize it as being full, because all your life you've eaten when you felt like this. but this is what it is to be full. so food is unnecessary at this time." in the right state of mind, you can convince yourself of anything and everything. the human psyche is absolutely one of the most amazing things i know of.
you really can convince yourself of everything. i've actually done it to myself accidentally, with minor things, like walking, and writing, and even breathing. "is this actually how this is done? how do i know? how do i know that everything i do, see, feel is correct?" actually, its all very matrix-like. i just realized that.
you can convince yourself, while walking in the rain, "this is not rain. oh nay, don't be confused. how can this possibly be rain? how do you even know what rain is? this is probably just a figment of your imagination. you aren't getting wet. in all actuality, you are dry as a kitten basking in the midday sun, but you have grown up believing that this stuff that falls from the sky makes you wet. if there even is stuff falling from the sky."
try it sometime. i've done something very similiar with memory before. i am notorious for my bad forgetfullness, but i have engraved in my head a couple things that i will remember for the rest of my life.
one of them is a picture. me, sitting at the table, which is covered with all kinds of things. the only problem with the execution of this mind-trick, or what have you, is that i didn't concentrate hard enough on all of the things on the table, so i only have a few of them in my memory, ie a newspaper and the napkin holder. but i do remember that there is a lot more litter than that.
another thing i've made a point to remember was quite silly, heh. it was a commercial for familyfun.com. i made a point to remember that for when i'm older, and if/when i have kids and i need ideas for party ideas/rainy-day activities, etc.
its all about will, my children. the mind is will.
more thoughts next entry.
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listening: propagandhi's "haillie sellasse, up your ass"
thinking: six more hours til band camp wooha!
feeling: not too shabby, actually. i guess... accomplished? eh.
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